If you all are wondering why I’m so passionate about certain causes… 10 1/2 years ago I tried to kill myself by ODing. I leave my family out of this because they are wonderful, loving people who had no part in it whatsoever. I have long suffered from bipolar disorder and substance abuse. I am aware that stating such can be used against me, but if my talking about gives even one person strength… I have paid it forward. There is NOTHING glamorous or cool about what I went through. It is NOT cool to sleep on a cardboard box, throwing up on yourself. NOT COOL!
I also suffered from severe anorexia and cutting, I witnessed the suicide of someone dear to me, could not get better and in Nov of 2003, I threw in the towel. I survived, but the result was a coma, and years of learning to function again physically.
I am happy to say, I am doing much better! It has been a process and STILL is, but I’m far away from the sad, destitute, forlorn girl I once was.
I was very close-minded and thought I knew better than everyone. “They just don’t have any idea how crappy the world is, stupid sheep”.
We all struggle to make it in this world…some more than others. Life is a fight …so KICK ASS!
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